Another Doctor Visit

So, I cried from 11 to 6pm...didn't feel better until the morning.

The last few visits have been with Stephanie Martin and this visit was with Dr Goud.  So, of course, another party in the violation room.  And, sadly, no results...not even a tiny reaction to this drug.  They couldn't see the left ovary too well because I had pee in my bladder.  I had to hop off the table and with my paper towel sheet and shoeless walk across the hall to go relieve myself.  Then we had a clear view of my ovary doing nothing.
When he was finished pulling out his instrument for the second time he discussed how he would like me to be on metphormin for 3 months, lose weight and exercise, and surgically remove the 7 plus cysts from one ovary and 5 plus from the other.

At this point I shut down~ exercise...do you realize that my tailbone still hurts me...I said something and he stated metphormin will help. Surgery?~ do you realize that I was just cut open 5 times for my tailbone and have spend way too much time in hospitals for the last 7 months?

Then in my haze he said something about trying both drugs again (of which I do not want to do because clomid makes me crazy and femara gave me the worst headache)  he thinks weight loss and metphormine will stimulate the right hormones (yeah, fing right, I want to laugh in his face).  I dont think it will work.  I am willing to bet money on it.

Then I said something about the fact that we had discussed with Stephanie that the next step will be shots or I at least, what I thought would be, a higher dose of femara.

we looked at the calendar and he didn't want to give me progesterone to start my period ~WTF
He didn't want me to do anything until three weeks from now~ WTF and summer is over and there went my dream of getting this done over summer...there went my thought of trying to do the hard stuff over the summer.

I whined and said something about the shots in which both doctor and nurse explained we would be missing steps and that we would increase triplets do 20%...then he would have triplets everywhere...but he would be willing if that is what we decide...but everyone is making it out like it is such a sin to jump to that.  The other complication is that when i will be able to start my next treatment school will have started (Aug 8th) and IF i did start shot treatment then I would need to be in their office every 3 days (at $175 a pop)...I can't skip school the first month...and these visits are so traumatizing to me every time  (makes me feel broken).

So I want to break and throw things and scream at the top of my lungs.