Wednesday, September 18, 2013

30 weeks

30 weeks.
Insanity; still working with it.
Pain is a lot less traumatic.
It has been a year and 5 months; would have thought I would be normal by now.
Surrogacy is no picnic.
Trying to get some excitement and hope going about the blessing of having a surrogate and twins coming but terror and fear still overwhelm me.  Jesus has given me strength each day and I hope it is His Will to help make me a mommy, give my husband some leniency, and heal my brokenness.

Thursday, May 30, 2013

recruiting baby help

Anyone that wants to help let me know!

predesignating jobs if we need the help which we have been told we will

Opa's Jobs/ Jan
vacuuming
emptying garbage
dog walking
feeding dogs
feeding cats
making dog frozen treats
collecting chicken eggs
pool filter


Oma's jobs/ Bob
dishwasher
premaking baby formula
heating bottles
sanitizing nipples and binkies
feeding fish inside and out
chicken food


Random:  Aspen Justin
Mowing
dog poop
groceries
frozen food casseroles

washing machine - Sandy?


Sue has volunteered


Tuesday, May 28, 2013

14 weeks
she is over vomiting
still has headaches
really bad pain on her right side

I am more scared now than 5 weeks ago

we are on our fourth book trying to prepare
room painted
on the process of getting carpet

We still pray and it help bring peace

Saturday, April 13, 2013

positive

bleeding last Sat- took till now to get over it. 7 weeks along with 2.  scared scared scared but praying about it.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

failure

Days are so fuzzy and blurry and weeks go by and it is like they never were.  Head, heart, husband hurt.  Praying on top of prayers.  Grief group through church helps.  Feeling like a failure at life, at living, and getting through grief, at procreating, and giving to my husband what I "promised" through marriage.  Finding each day easier since April 3rd but harder at the same time.

Friday, January 25, 2013

negative

$26,000 gone and nothing
on one 100% Blast
and one 95% A quality Blast

11 left