Obvious from the last post we finally got pregnant through Kaiser Sacramento and Dr Sohn using IVF.  It was horrid and I was allergic to HCG - after egg retrieval I couldn't walk and breathing was hard- It took me two weeks to recover. Transplant was easy.  Right before Christmas we got the good news...one month later I was vomiting everywhere- 2 weeks later I got what felt like pneumonia and was vomiting from 4 to 8 times a day.  Life was horrid until 14 1/2 months and even then I was vomiting once a day and still nauseous.  I had motion sickness when people moved around me. Over spring break we took our anniversary trip a few hours away - San Diego and that is where we lost our baby...the most traumatic horrific experience ever- blood, cramps, doctors unable to find veins, ambulance, grumpy doctors, doctors not knowing what to do or that there is even a pill to stop contractions, lots of hands up the vagina, doctors using flashlights to look up my vagina, beds that dont go up or down for comfort, live baby that is felt kicking and moving as it comes out, contractions that feel like they are trying to remove my hips from my body, evil  epidural lady making me bend forward while baby is partially out of me, horrible kicking leg cause she put it in me wrong, placenta that refuses to detach, two different pills to remove it one that makes me defecate everywhere, baby alive and dying 4 feet away behind a curtain, nurses that keep coming in to check on it, making dustin take a picture with it and smile, som much constipation they force me to have it removed- hands so far up my colon I dont understand- so much taken out of me I dont understand- so high on epidural I dont understand- life so fucked up now I dont understand